Restored. Fulfilled. Blessed. Free. Just a few words to describe how I'm feeling right now.
I've previously blogged about some of the struggles I've faced in my life so far and one of them being about my self confidence and hiding who I really am. I just wanna thank everyone who has supported me through it all, I'm blessed to have you in my life!!
I've recently come home from spending 2 weeks in Zambia, Africa. (Which for the record was flipping amazing!) Whilst I was there I had so much time to just relax, think, reflect and spend time with God. I feel as though, when I was there my faith grew and I really do feel great!
The weirdest thing happened to me in the first couple of days... When at first I was feeling proper anxious and shy about being there alone, all of sudden this confident, bubbly and super crazy personality appeared - The girl thats been hiding inside all this time finally felt comfortable enough with the people around to break out of the shell.
Now I've come home, my journey continues and I'm hoping the person I was in Zambia with the team (my Africa family) will stay for good as I get used to my new surroundings in Felixstowe and as I move to University - Depending how Thursday goes!! I don't want this Sabrina to hide away again, I want her to stay. It's the me I want to be. I've found her.
More about Zambia!!
Although in the couple of months before the trip there was doubt whether I'd be going due to my anxiety, I made it! I really do have my family and God to thank for that, for putting me through the steps I needed to prepare me to get there without feeling unable to cope or overwhelmed!!
Whilst in Zambia, we saw some crazy things that have really changed my view on life in the UK. We visited people's homes, heard stories from street children and so much more! If only I could fit it all into one blog post!! Coming home is the weirdest culture shock ever, we have so much more than them there, yet we have so much more complaining here than they do. The live in houses the size of my bedroom with very little in them and people here complain about the weather!! It really changes your view on life and I think everyone should go to experience it!! If you're lucky enough to see me soon not only will you meet the real me but also, be warned, I will talk for hours about the trip :) !!